supergoddess writes

How refreshing it is to go to the beach! I really had fun with my friends, and of course, with my beloved Hon Hon. LOL.

Anyhow, before I post anything, I wanna greet him a Happy 23rd Monthsary!!! I month to go and we’ll be celebrating our second year. Time flies really fast. Most of the people don’t know it, but we have the longest relationship in record. Sure, there’s puppy love and such, but we are soulmates. If he’s stubborn, I managed to control it. So if I happen to feel real bad, he makes me feel really loved. Ive told you this a hundred times, but really, I couldn’t go on doing nice things without you. I know that I could depend on you, but you are a sole reason I wake up every morning. I’m proud to say that you’ve never given up on me, ever. No matter how stubborn I could get or how impulsive I am in some things. And in all fairness, I could say that we have never broken up before because you never let me. haha. Never a day would I forget that I do love you. Though sometimes, things go from bad to worse, you always make sure that everything will be alright and things will be just as fine. So for us, cheers for lasting this long. I love you UBER much!

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So there, back to our Galera Trip, we made it so much fun even though we have this less time on our hands. With Besty Mela, Brent, Jon, Judith, Jeni, Michi, Tina and DJ. Though at first, we had a rocky start, we still managed to get along. But note to the people who plans on going, there are too much people there! Really!

The peak of the adventure was during our Day Two. Woke up at 6:30 AM (With Mela banging at Hon and I’s room. Hahahaha!), then boatride for 20 minutes or so. When we reached this small and private island, we went a-swimming because we were the only ones there and escaped the rustling Galera crowd. Then we went snorkeling. This small boat would circle around the sea for us to look underwater. I must have seen at least five starfishes (but all color blue!). And then there were sea urchins, sea anemones and different fishes. Brent was so aliw that he even sang “Under the Sea” with his snorkeling gear on. Waah! Next time, I would want to go to the falls or something. hehe. Or the para-sailing. So many adventures to try out.
So there, I had so much fun! I hope it’ll happen again. Now were already thinking where to go next. hehe.

I gotta go back to the real world where paperstacks happen. LOL. Hoping to visit other places before looking the other countries. Bye!

I have experienced a terrible storm in my heart. Though I am not sure what will happen or everything will be back to way it used to be, I feel a little relieved that whatever occurrences during the past days will soon be over. Clearly, everything will be in a different order and the feelings might not be the same anymore. And hopefully, I could find the path towards healing and forgiveness.

..That is, if everything I’m trying to believe is true, and that the person whom I depend on sincerely means what he say or do.

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I saw this one drug at Yahoo that could erase a bad memory when taken. I would want to go there (Harvard) to maybe apply as a guinea pig of some sort. Its just that recent events and some parts of my life could help to be forgotten. Really.

Remember "Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind"? I think it is similar to that. Although the drug is still in the works. I don’t know. But for now, its the only reason to escape pain. Or something like that.

Maybe someday, things will be better. I hope.. And I continue to. For God gives you pain, and wholeheartedly accept it for the sole reason that it makes you stronger and believe that everything has its purpose.

I feel sOooooo sick today. Hate it Hate it Hate it. I don’t want this
colds. It makes me feel weak and all. This headache isn’t making my
living any better too. Argh.

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Watched Shrek 3 yesterday at Megamall with Hon hon. Was cute and all.
And it was a blast as expected. I loved Gingy and Sleeping Beauty when
she would doze off even at the heat of a fight scene. Super aliw talaga.

Hon hon gave me another baby. His name’s Kirby. Wala lang. I just
wanted that name for a long time. He was a black bear. Well, I actually
wanted a real dog, but I don’t know how in heaven’s name I could ever
take care of it. Considering how busy I am at work and other things.

Anyhow, I spent the day home. I couldn’t even remember when I stayed
home on a Saturday. It would always be a day out with friends or Hon.
But this time, since my mom couldn’t travel to Nova yet, she stayed
home with the rest of us. It actually feels bad that her surgery cut is
hurting every now and then. It kills to see your mother feeling weak
and you cannot do anything about it. See, I always perceived her as
this strong person who could overcome almost anything, even the
loneliness that the father of her children isn’t always around. But
seeing her feeling weak is a different perspective. Well, I hope she’ll
be fine in a few days.

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I
finally finished "The Perfect Day" book. The story was so nice too.
Imagine how you thought you’re gonna die in a few days, but end up that
it was a joke in the first place. Well, it was more of a realization of
trying to do what’s right. Maybe everyone should know when they would
die, so that everyone could change. Well, it’s up to you whether it
would be for good or bad.

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Have to go focus on my stupid sickness.

I need to reboot and reformat.

Suddenly,
every pressure is on me. I feel like Carrie Bradshaw stepped into my
life where she feels that she is being punished or something in one of
the Sex and the City’s episode. I feel distressed and all, leaving all
the blame with the people around me, most especially hon. I just keep
on trying to argue with the most insignificant things almost all the
time. I myself do not know where, when or how it happened. I just
wanted it out of me. As remotely soon as possible.

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I need to write new pieces.

Feels
like my writing skills are being deteriorated. I want to feel the way
it used to be, sleeping late at night just to finish an article, or
getting crazy over the fact that we haven’t interviewed this particular
person where we are nearing the deadline. It’s mostly business writing
at work. I am actually gagging over that fact right now. Not that I am
complaining, but I am yearning to write about different people, going
to different places, interviews, translating tape recordings and such.
Maybe in two years or so, I would be able to do that. I don’t want to
teach. I made up my mind a long time ago for that. I don’t want to go
to law school either, there are good journalists (of course my UST
friends) who are better lawyers to be, than myself. After all, I’m
still young. And I don’t feel like wasting my time in things that I
wouldn’t be able to pursue in the long run anyway.

But someday, I’d be a true-blue, working my ass off, maybe even award-winning journalist. I know in time, I would.

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I need to know my worth

Oooh,
controversy perhaps? Nah, I’m just saying this to face my fears. I have
been this overbearing b*tch for a long time. I didn’t want to fail. If
I knew someone better and I didn’t like this person, I’d try to deject
them. This time, I’d keep quiet. Everyone deserves a chance. But just
don’t expect me to be clapping my hands. That is so not me anymore.

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There.
Somehow, I feel less crappy. I know there is something wrong with me,
but I keep shrugging it off because I don’t want to answer my questions
just yet. I am happy with my life. But sometimes, I feel indifferent of
the people around me. Or no one really cares sometimes.

..Maybe that’s how it is supposed to be. Shallow isn’t it?

Happy Mother’s Day to the one of the greatest and prettiest mama in the world! Love you Mama.

There
was one time that Hon told me I am beginning to sound like my mother. I
was mortified at what he said because although I came from her, any
minute now, we could turn into a Freaky Friday movie and pull a
switcheroo just to understand each other.

I didn’t get to grow
up with my Mom. While I get to attend school at Novaliches, she was
working at Manila. There are times that I would despise her because she
would confiscate my Sweet Valley Books whenever my grades would drop or
failed a quiz. I also felt deprived of material things, especially when
I would ask her to buy nice and expensive things for me. And that
caused me to love my Lola more than her.

She took me from my
lola when I was in high school. I actually thought it was hell because
she gets to see what I was doing, my habits, even how I study (not that
it’s a big deal, I just don’t want anyone keeping the eye on me). So
really, I kept almost everything from her. Even the guys Ive dated were
off limits to our conversations because she would either ridicule or
insult the guys I like. See the picture now?

It was only then in
college that we became close, I guess. Because I don’t thrive to have
too much material things anymore, the simple things excite me. Going to
malls for no apparent reason, bargain-hunting, even the night markets
are looked forward especially when she invites me to come with her.

Presently,
we cope with each other. Although we were like oil and water a lot of
times, I love my mom. I love her fascination with dolphins. I love her
bringing me my favorite things. I am proud that she puts up with Lester
and I. And although we don’t look that much alike, I sooo love her and
no one could ever replace her here..<3

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Spent the whole day with Hon today doing lotsa things. Went to the
hospital, went to Mega to buy him the Anniversary gift (which I
persuaded him to say what he wants so that I would not end up buying
him what he doesn’t want, and thankfully agreed), bought a gift for
Avi’s Baptismal and Birthday, him buying me THE most awaited book

"For One More Day", then went to our house for more quality time.

Anyhow,
we also managed to rummage DVDs at Quiapo, but didn’t buy anything. I
dunno why, maybe I have so many movies still lined up unwatched, or
maybe because I still have five books untouched. I feel sad that I
couldn’t finish them all. My spare time to read is when I travel to the
office, ride a jeepney then open a book (that is, when I don’t fall
asleep during the ride to the office). Hence, I couldn’t bear to finish
any. I just feel bad that I am splurging for books, or rather I let Hon
splurge for my books. I don’t know. When I point something to him, he
just keeps on picking it up and the last time I see it, its all paid
for and wrapped. But sometimes, when I catch him buying things for me,
we would always have a fight that I don’t really need it and I would
just want him to see it. He even reasons that he didn’t get to buy
things for me pa ‘nun ha.

I
just don’t want people to have this impression that I’m spending his
money. After all, I have mine to spare. I’m used to buying things in
moderation. I guess I got that from my mom. See, I’m starting to be
like her na talaga.

..oh well, just clearing things up.

Elections
on Monday again. Have my line-up ready since last week. But I don’t
know, guess it still might change over this weekend. Gotta go, feeling
groggy already. (Duh, why wouldn’t I? It’s past two. haha O_O )

Hate this day. Don’t ask why. I’m just so freaking
pissed. ’nuff said.

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SOoo excited to see Spiderman 3. I don’t know, I just
have this sudden rush whenever I see the trailer or the poster. I just adore
him. Good job, Tobey. haha

Anyhow, went to Gateway today. Saw the book "For One More
Day" at Fully Booked. Really, it is haunting me and I am freaked by the
occurrences.I am again, confused. Just that I’m planning to buy new shoes
tomorrow and I’d rather spend this pay for them than a new book. We also have to
reserve for the Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows. Hon got this e-book but
I’m not that sure if it genuine or so. That’s why I opt to read the real thing.
July 21 here I come. Haha!

Slept late last night because I was rushing something for
the Grand day. I know I could finish it on time, but time itself doesn’t permit
me to even scan through it.

My good friend, Jayvee, is going to resign already after
two months of working. Just that its too bad because were left out again. See
after Chay, he has been a bit of an asset already. Maybe he was burnt out or
something but he’s not changing his mind about it. Oh well, Move on.

I have so many pending books to read. i don’t know what
to begin.

Have to go already. Just slipped a second to post
this. Buhbye. 

Made my first corpo layout for the newest account. Sir Ronnie liked it. Yay. Not bad for a first-timer. just so ecstatic that they were kinda proud of my work. Move over Maverick.. uh, oh, just kidding.

So anyhow, for the heck of it, I’m so glad that payday came in early as expected. Went to EDSA Central for Booksale and scored a gift for Hon for the upcoming "first year celeb" and I think he might love it. I’m crossing my fingers for that one.

And speaking of sale, I got myself a "Message in A Bottle", which I got for 120 pesos. Ha! But not in the niftiest condition unlike my Deception Point book. Hon says "bilib na ko sa’yo pag nakakita ka ng Digital Fortress sa Booksale" And I am hoping I could like, see one, but it is kind of impossible. Unless one American would trash away his copy and decides to sell his copy at Booksale. Well that might be a miracle of sorts.

But since I haven’t withdrawn my pay yet, went to Shang to see if there’s something good to buy. And as my gut instinct says, found another sale, this time at National Bookstore, Saw a nice book for just…ding ding ding… THIRTY PESOS. But was really devastated because "For One More Day" by Mitch Albom dropped the softbound at 300 bucks. I.want.to.buy.so.badly.

…but knowing myself, I have to resort to book reviews, and all that jazz before I buy it. Or maybe it could be a wishlist for an upcoming event? Nah. I’d probably snag it one of these days…probably by persuation. haha!

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Am craving for Donut. Am actually meaning to Krispy Kreme-ify myself. Since I’ve been reading that name at my old books, namely Sweet Valley, I’ve been meaning to try one. And since they opened stores here, I vow to visit one and make myself full of it.

Still feeling queasy right now. Maybe I’ll lie down already. After all, I deserve my precious lull. Nightie.

Cool noh?

Hopefully for me, I saw the
Harry Potter Order of the Phoenix poster and it says that its gonna be
shown at Imax 3D. I just wish it’ll be shown here at the Philippines.
I’m so crossing my fingers now.

My multiply here at house is acting weird right now. argh.

Anyhow, I almost lost my fone
earlier. I was sitting at the end of the jeepney en route to
Blumentritt and was holding my other fone where I use my sun sim. 3310
lang naman siya, but then, I almost let go of it today. LITERALLY.
Wanna know why? I stupidly got asleep while holding my fone. And I was
already in dreamland, fone slipped out of my hand. Luckily, I woke up
and got hold of it before it goes down. haay..

Were gonna be celebrating eleventh tomorrow. I am sooooo excited.
Actually, were just going to hang out here at our house, but then there
are lots of DVDs and helluva PS2 games to finish up. Never a dull
moment when were together. Lots to do anyway.

Love you so much honey. Muah! Gotta go now.

Last Saturday, went to MOA with Hon, his mom, dad, ate and her ate’s husband. It was one of the highlights of my relationship because I have never been on something like this. Well, maybe before since we’ve been like friends for a long time, but then, this is the first time that I have been in a real relationship and all that jazz.

Was fun considering that we didn’t get to just eat but managed to like play at the arcade with them. Hon said sorry afterwards because they were like chaotic at that time, but it was fun. Really.

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Anyway, went to Makati last Friday where BPI ATM’s were such a waste of time. It sucked a sum of Hon’s money. I just hope he could recover it or something.

Afterwards, went to Greenbelt to eat. So had dinner at Yellow Cab and even got something for brother who was waiting all night just for me to get home.

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So continuation of my MOA adventure, went there at 12 or something. Bought three new books, one courtesy of Hon and some pc stuffs. Met them at 4:30 while making our dance at the Rev machines at Timezone. It was just so funny because his mom called my mom to inform us that they should meet us there already. Haay..

Night time, went to Tempura and had dinner. Super eat ang nangyari because they like splurged. But in the end, it was worth it cause everyone was so full at the end of the meal.

But wait, there’s more. Even went to Timezone. Saya ng new game. Parang Rialto. Haay. wish I could go back to EK.

Hafta go. Hon’s scolding me already. Bye bye! Love you Hon. muah!